How My Yoga Practice Changed With Each Of My Pregnancies by Lauren Speziale

One of the greatest things about yoga is that it can evolve to meet an individual’s changing needs. What looks and feels like yoga can vary greatly from one person to the next. What we need in our practice can be completely different from one day to the other, and similarly from one pregnancy to another.

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First Pregnancy Experience

When I was pregnant with my first child, I was young(er), healthy, physically fit and active. I’ve always said that I was so grateful to find yoga before I was pregnant; this beautiful, flowy, mindful practice that I connected with immediately. But I had begun yoga only a few months before I became pregnant, and although my body had become quickly familiar with the movements and postures, I didn’t know much about modifications, adaptations, and how to make the practice work for me. Eight years ago there was not a lot of Prenatal Yoga offered in the city. I had already found a studio that I loved, so I continued to do ‘regular’ (non-prenatal) classes throughout the pregnancy. I focused on strengthening and continued to do most of the challenging postures right up until the end. I was plank-ing, chaduranga-ing, balancing, inverting.. all of it! I didn’t really focus on the gentle, softening aspects of the practice.

Because I had stuck with a fairly ‘regular’ practice (what was regular to me at the time) I felt very strong; however, in hindsight, I think my body was quite rigid. I hadn’t let my body soften and open the way it needs to in order to grow and birth a baby. My first labour was long and slow to progress; my body had a hard time opening. I always wonder if my approach to yoga was part of the reason why.

Second Pregnancy Experience

By my second pregnancy I was tired. So tired. I was still young(ish) and healthy, but now I had a toddler to keep up with, so I couldn’t nap the same way I did during my first pregnancy. In addition to growing a new life I was working toward a promotion at work and was exhausted. It was the most tired and busy I had ever been! There was very little time and energy to get to a yoga class. A lot of my yoga was practiced at home, in my cozy bedroom, after my toddler had gone to bed or once my partner got home from work and we could trade-off.

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Becoming a Yoga Teacher

By this time I had become a yoga teacher and had been teaching for a couple years. I was being trained by one of my mentors in Prenatal Yoga and had been teaching prenatal classes for a period of time, so I knew more about movement and prenatal bodies this time, which became very helpful for determining how I wanted to move, and which was very different than round one of pregnancy. I found a practice that was softer, flowy, more gentle some days, more strengthening others. I knew what I needed each day based on what my body was telling me. And I learned to listen this time. Many days my body wanted to stay very close to the ground, lying on my back in supportive postures like baddha konasana, with cushiony bolsters and pillows to support the legs so the pelvic floor could completely release, or in a seated position doing pelvic circles to get the stagnant energy in my body moving. And yummy side stretches to give my poor ribs some relief. Or low lunges to release tension in the hips and legs. Other days I would be in the mood for a standing sequence, challenging the whole body and really warming up. I let things get a little softer this time, not so rigid. I focused not only on strengthening but also on releasing tension and allowing for my body to open.

I was also fortunate to find a warm, intimate Prenatal Yoga community by my second pregnancy. Each week or so I made a point of getting to these prenatal classes. I loved to connect with other women to hear their stories, to share my experience, and to complain without judgment! The teacher and each of us held space for each other and it was beautiful. My sister Jenna was pregnant as well so it was very special to be able to share the practice and experience with her.

Third Pregnancy Experience

By pregnancy number three, I was not only completely exhausted and not as young as during my first pregnancy, but I felt sick. For the entire first trimester (13 whole weeks!) life was grey. Between having two young, energetic boys, my day job and my yoga teaching, I was barely getting through each day. It’s incredible all the things women must maintain in their lives while growing a new life! I always say to my prenatal students that maternity leave should start the day you find out you’re pregnant. Much like my second pregnancy, my yoga was gentle, slow, sometimes fluid, sometimes very still. Some days it was more about meditation and visualization. I created a sense of permissiveness throughout my body and mind - I allowed myself to slow down, to rest more and I allowed myself freedom not to do yoga some days. As I got further along in my pregnancy, I allowed my body to open, to let go of all sorts of tension and stresses in order to do that.

It is incredible how much my practice changed throughout my pregnancies. I never would have been able to practice yoga in my last pregnancy the same way I did in my first, and my body knew that. I was able to identify my changing needs and then adapt my practice to meet those needs. Sometimes that is the harder part of yoga for many of us - not doing the hard stuff, allowing ourselves a more gentle approach.

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Prenatal Yoga Teacher Experience

As a Prenatal Yoga teacher, I see women coming to their mats with such diverse and changing needs. Some days they are so exhausted they barely peel themselves off the couch to get to class. Other days they are in the mood to sweat. Other days they might have to leave class 2-3 times to pee! I invite women to bring awareness to what their needs are that day, whether they are ideal or not - to meet themselves where they are at. Pregnancy is such a transformational time! It is empowering for women to be able to adapt their practice to support the changes happening in their bodies and lives.

Join Lauren’s prenatal classes on Thursday evenings at 5:30-6:30pm in the Wellness Room. Save your spot here.

More About Lauren

Lauren’s passion for yoga centres around the practice of awareness, self-inquiry and interception. It is through this ongoing practice that the relationship with the self is strengthened, the first step to living a more harmonious life. Lauren practiced yoga through all three of her pregnancies and experienced many of the benefits yoga has to offer while carrying her babies and preparing for their births. She was so grateful for yoga during these times, that it ignited her excitement to share the gift of yoga with others!

Lauren completed her initial 200 hour Hatha-Vinyasa yoga teacher training in 2013 with Katie McClelland and Andre Grandbois at De La Sol Yoga Studios. She has furthered her education as a yoga teacher through programs such as Yin Yang training with Erin Aquin, Prenatal and Postnatal training with Kerry Casarin, Mindful Strength Training with Kathryn Bruni-Young, and most recently Anatomy and Asana training with Natalie Jakymyshyn and Helena McKinney at In Fine Feather

Lauren started out teaching Vinyasa, flow-style yoga as well as grounding, meditative classes. Over the past few years her scope of teaching has broadened to include Prenatal, Postnatal and Mom & Baby classes.

More About Prenatal Yoga at In Fine Feather Yoga

This class is designed to safely build strength and flexibility to help carry a growing belly and baby, in a calm and peaceful environment. Movements will focus on alleviating common aches and pains that many women face; along with simple sequences that help to improve circulation, aid in digestion and to decrease overall discomforts. Throughout the class, emphasis will also be placed on effective breathing and relaxation techniques that can assist you both throughout pregnancy and labour. Most importantly, you will be guided to turn your attention inwards, finding that deep, magical connection to yourself and your loved one.

2019 Gratitude Flashback with Helena McKinney, Owner of In Fine Feather Yoga.

A message from yoga studio owner, Helena McKinney.

It is so important that we honour our past achievements; sometimes reflecting on this is just what we need to gather up motivation and momentum for the year ahead. This annual reflection asks me to look at 10 things I achieved both personally and professionally last year. Some of my accomplishments are small personal shifts that have created a healthy impact on my life. Others are huge, impactful and memorable. The second part of the reflection invites me to explore 5 things I hope to achieve in the next year. Join me as I guide you through a glimpse of 2019!

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1. Being on Time

This is huge for me. Being late is something I am known for and for a number of reasons, I really made an effort this year to change this pattern. Being late stresses me out big time. I panic trying to fit too much in, I leave no time to get ready, I drive like I am in Nascar to get where I need to go, and I show up to a meeting or to teach a class with a racing heart. Who am I serving by doing this? How prepared am I showing up when I do this? Am I honouring the other individual's time when I do this? I began to ask myself these questions and I started to reshape my morning routines and how I managed my time. I became more realistic with my scheduling. I now feel like I show up with breath and clarity, more prepared to do the work I love and this feels good. I also feel like it shows a respect to the people who have also carved out time to be with me. I am not the only person with stuff to do.... I admit this hasn’t been successful 100% of the time but it takes awhile to work through patterns and I can see an improvement.

2. Waking Up Early...(ier)

I am also known for being a night hawk. There is something about the late night that feels auspicious to me. Convinced I would get my best work done in the middle of the night, while everyone was sleeping, I would tap into my most creative self. When my life schedule changed, I started going to bed a little earlier to wake up earlier. Turns out, the daylight brings a lightness to my work; I get just as much, if not more, done during the day. I rest with ease in the evening rather than with the pressure I used to feel, knowing I accomplished a full day's work in the morning. I can now spend my evenings in the tub relaxing, going for a walk, catching an extra yoga class or watching a film I have been wanting to check out. It has created more time for personal development and rest.

3. Meal Prepping

In 2016, I admittedly didn’t pick up a frying pan or cook a single thing for the entire year. I was a new entrepreneur and lot of my time was focused on the business. This means, I spent far too much money eating out and relying heavily on the generosity of my mother's home cooked meals. I had to find a strategy to support me in the kitchen. Here it is! Book a day and time to buy groceries and do it every week. Also, my shopping method: purchase 2 fruits, 3 vegetables, 1 carb, 1 snack, 1 spice and 2 staple items. This is so I don’t waste and I am efficient with what I get for 1 person. It helps me a lot if grocery shopping day is also the same as my cooking day. I now have a regular rotation of meals I enjoy cooking, a stocked spice rack and more Tupperware to pack food on the go. I forget to eat when I book my days too full, so it is super convenient when I can quickly heat something up before class. My energy is up, I am saving money and I have developed a new skill for cooking. (Never as good as my mama though).

4. Launching Online Yoga Classes with IFF

This year we launched our first ever online yoga series! It was such a learning experience and I am looking forward to expanding it. It was a challenge figuring out the method for launching it and I can see us tweaking it in the future but right now, it has given me the opportunity to connect with a whole new community of students. The platform has also reconnected me with students I haven’t seen in a long time. Lives change, people move, or circumstances limit them from being able to come to the studio. I am so happy this option is available to them! This also challenged my teaching style because being on camera didn’t feel natural at first. I want to continue to be an authentic teacher and I hope I can translate this in my online platform.

5. Expanding the Namaste Niagara Summer Program

If you haven’t had the chance to experience yoga at Journey Behind the Falls, it is truly an unbelievable opportunity. This summer we extended the program for all of July and August on both Saturdays and Sundays. It took a lot of planning and organizing but gave the whole In Fine Feather Yoga team the chance to connect with yogis from all over North America. It is one of the most challenging classes you will ever host as an instructor, but the most breathtaking experience. Also, who doesn’t love yoga paired with a delicious, locally sourced brunch! It is pretty exciting building this series with awesome partners like Niagara Parks!

6. Becoming a Community Parter with the Neighbour 2 Neighbour Centre in Hamilton

This year the studio wanted to focus on giving back to community. We wanted to explore supporting communities outside of the yoga studio. A part of this was understanding our own privilege and our ability to make some basic necessities more accessible. It brought to light how many people in Hamilton are going without vital resources. We ran a number of charitable donation drives at the studio for personal hygiene products, toiletries, infant items and more. Our students gave back willingly and openly. This is something we plan to continue to do with the support of our new Community Coordinator, Carol D’Alves.

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7. Relocating the Yoga Studio and Setting up a New Home

In September we closed the doors to a space we called home for five years and opened the doors to another. This came with so many mixed emotions, fear, anxiety, stress, concern, upset, loss, curiosity, new beginnings, excitement, opportunity, brand new sparkle (yes that’s a feeling) and so much support. The transition was unexpected and took a lot of coordinating. We had classes running at the one studio, while renovating the second. The transition was fairly seamless and I couldn’t have done any of it without the support of my staff, community members and especially, Meagan Santa. She was by my side every second of every day figuring out the logistics, taking all my calls on design ideas and executing the marketing plan. I feel really grateful that people have followed us to the new space and embraced it fully. We have already made some pretty awesome memories in our new home.

8. Hosting our 1st Yoga Retreat Om in India with Jackee Desimone

This past November we embarked on a spiritual and cultural journey to incredible India. This would have never been possible without the passion, desire and meticulous planning by Jackee. This is her baby and she truly put her whole heart into crafting this experience for all of us. Eighteen souls travelled through India for 16 days feeling safe and supported because of the energy Jackee put into this. It wasn’t just the most memorable part of 2019. It is possibly one of the most memorable, impactful, life change experiences I have ever been a part of. India has a little piece of all of us now. I will be going back to explore more of this sensational country.

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9. Let’s go to Morocco. Launched our 2nd Retreat

With momentum high, 1 day after opening the studio, I met with Jackee and Meagan to launch a 2nd yoga retreat to Morocco. Why not? Right! - like I didn’t have enough going on and rest wasn’t needed! lol! When you are surrounded and supported by motivated people it is incredible what can be produced. Like generators, our energy feels electric and it lights me up. I look forward to seeing a different part of the world this August and it makes me proud to say this retreat is sold out. Again, a huge thank you to Jackee for turning your love of travel into an experience for our community.

10. Opening my 2nd Business, Emerge Mentoring, with Meagan Santa

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I have always known I would own a second business but this one took a few years of soul searching and looking inward to come to life. I have really matured as a female entrepreneur in the last couple years and know that I have stepped into my calling. The more I grow my business and the more I put into it, the more confident I feel with my decision to open a business. I started to look at the strengths I have acquired over the years and combined with my teaching skill set, an amazing partnership with Meagan, a business mentoring company was born. I have a desire for all individuals to step into their life purpose, to bravely embark into the world of being an entrepreneur. The intention is that Emerge Mentoring will provide people with the tools and resources to take this leap.

What will 2020 bring?

1. Exploring more diverse fitness classes. I want to check out new movement studios that have opened recently in Hamilton. This will require me to schedule the time, be open to new experiences and sensations in my body!

2. Register myself for a leadership course or program in community development. I have to do research on this; online classes do not work for me. I am much more attentive in a classroom setting.

3. Read more books, even if they are audible. I want to engage my mind in a different way. I am often given so many suggestions on great books. I could work on my evening routine to include 15 minutes a day.

4. Do more guest speaking and build different mentorship programs; develop an online platform for content as well. Meagan and I are already strategizing plans and events for the year. We have momentum after launching the business in October and we want to get out there as much as we can. 5. Be healthier in body and mind, which means consuming less alcohol. Drinking is something that is so normalized in our culture but I think the effects should be addressed more. This is also a personal choice to see if I feel more clarity and save more money. (More to come on this topic).

Thanks so much for walking with me on this wild year! My heart can not even handle the growth created at the studio every year. It is a beautiful combination of our collective energies and desire to build each other up. Thank you for supporting my dream, my passion, for believing in me and for always raising each other up.

Much love, Helena

A Student to Yoga Teacher Journey By Mallorie Edward

Mallorie has been apart of the In Fine Feather community since the beginning. We are happy to share this blog where she shares her journey and experience as a student, yoga teacher trainee and now graduate.

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How It Started

I have known Helena for many moons, growing up in Hamilton and going to university at the same time but it was not until I became a loyal attendee at her PYWC classes at The FreeWay Cafe in 2012 that our friendship really had a chance to blossom. I had been working on my own yoga practice for 3 years prior but have never sought out a home base studio for a variety of the usual reasons, lifestyle, schedules, and cost. But this suited me well, once a week, a donation of what I could and a young teacher who was learning how to be the yoga teacher she wanted to be alongside us learning to be the yoga students we wanted to be. After a few months of steady weekly in-class practice and the odd casual encounters out in the real world, it would be safe to say Helena and I were becoming friends, hilarity ensued. 


The Growth at IFF

Over the past 7 years, our friendship has developed as much as we have ourselves, and I am honoured to have been there with her through the growth and development of In Fine Feather as a studio and community. From the first conversation, we had about pros and cons of physical space, to our first home upstairs at the corner of Ottawa and Barton and the people I met there who I still have the privilege of seeing weekly (I am talking about you Shelley, B.J., and Aldona). The quick momentum that space built up meant we grew into our next home at 219 Ottawa St N where 5 years flew by. I started my Energy Exchange role at that time and quickly grew to love my desk shift. The opportunity to welcome and greet regular faces and new students each morning, the chance to introduce so many new people not just to the world of yoga but to our community at In Fine Feather. Over the years that space grew and developed, new coats of paint, the expansion of our Wellness Room and the start of our Yoga Teacher Training Program.

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From day one Helena was enthusiastically encouraging my joining the program, but as a full-time restaurant worker time never seemed to make itself available. I was very dedicated to my career and had achieved many of the goals I had set out for myself over the years, but it was coming at a price. By the beginning of 2019, I felt I needed a change and a challenge, I was at a point in my career where I could possibly make the first Module of Yoga Teacher Training work, learning about Anatomy seemed a logical step in the development of my yoga practice. Last-minute my roommate and I agreed to sign up for the program and see where it led, and we were hooked. Helena has done a tremendous job of curating her program and cultivating a wonderful community of specialists to enrich the courses offered. Over this time our friendship again expanded, her support of each and every one of her YTT students has been so touching to experience and observe. 

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Next Steps into the New Year

And just to keep things exciting, as most of you know we moved out studio September 2019 to our new home at 249 Ottawa St N. This, of course, happened just as the final Module of YTT began and we began our first steps of actually sequencing and curating a yoga class. As we settled into our new space as students of In Fine Feathers our class was settling into the rooms we would go on to teach our first official yoga classes (check us out every Saturday at 10 am for Open Flow in the Wellness Room), a lot of exciting change for everyone. So as we recent graduates go on to explore our new roles as Yoga Teachers, we as a community will go on to grow and explore our new home at 249 Ottawa St N. What Helena has created for us has always reminded me of a favourite quote, “What should people do with their lives today? Many things, obviously. But the most daring thing is to create stable communities in which the terrible disease of loneliness can be cured.” Thank you for creating a space for us to meet, laugh with, support and really be there for one another, here’s to many more years.

More About Teacher Training at In Fine Feather Yoga

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Yoga as My Constant. How my Yoga Practice Supports me Through it All by Helena McKinney

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I am writing this blog post from an International Airport in Bangalore, India. 

I have officially been away from In Fine Feather Yoga, Hamilton and everything that’s familiar to me for over a week. This is the first time I have done this type of travelling in almost 10 years. Being away has allowed to have some space from everything we call day to day living. It has also allowed me to reflect on all of my efforts, my hard work, the rewards and see where I am today because of a practice that consistently invites me to grow and evolve. The last few months have been a whirl wind and have at times, made my mind feel like it was constantly spinning. So much has happened behind the scenes and through it all yoga was my constant. Yoga always has my back with whatever might be going on in my life. It is an aid to anything I am doing and I am grateful for this type of energetic support. 

 
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This September, the yoga studio changed locations.

We had 3 days to shut the old space down and rebuild, design and open the new space. All the while we were operating a regular schedule, I still taught my usual classes and had to keep it all running smoothly and make the change over to the new location seamless. This was a very good thing, while overwhelming at times because work days were starting to last 14 hours a day, 7 days a week, it is so important that I landed on my mat to connect inwards and move through my practice. Yoga offers me the space to centre and ground myself through all the chaos going on around me. Teaching regularly helps me to maintain a some what consistent schedule which creates stability and routine in my busy life. 

 
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In September our 200 Hour Yoga Teacher Training program started back up.

We gathered in the brand new space on weekends for the final 50 hours of teaching, sequencing and finding your voice. Graduation was just around the corner so a lot went into preparing these trainees to get out there and start teaching. Even though this increased my work load, teaching teachers is one of my favourite things to do. I receive so much value from doing teacher evaluations. We all benefit from being more mindful with our language and I love receiving gentle reminders of my own through hosting this program. At one of my busiest times, when my energy and mental capacity were low, this was especially helpful and kept me on top of teaching quality classes. No matter what, yoga has my back.

 
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Prior to Jackee and I leaving for Om In India, our yoga retreat to the North and South of India, we had a ton of planning to do.

Of course there was logistical planning that had to happen but we also wanted the teaching component of this retreat to be rich in philosophy and personal development. Jackee and I have put countless hours into curating an incredibly special opportunity for the attendees who are joining us on this journey. We all have the desire to experience adventure and through this practice we are able to travel, go to the birth place of yoga, develop a whole other side to IFF and create life long memories. We sat down together to skillfully plan our lessons and here we are exciting them, what a gift! This practice offers me so many unimaginable gifts. 

 
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It excites me very much to be sharing the launch of my second business, Emerge Mentoring with my cofounder Meagan Santa. 



This has been a passion project of ours for almost a year. Emerge is a mentoring and consulting company that wants to support new or small businesses invest in their growth. We want to be apart of the creative process for businesses and help them get off the ground, strategize tactics for success and support them with any business needs. What makes this endeavour even more special for the both of us? Yoga philosophy is deeply rooted in the core values of this company. It is so important for us as business owners that we keep our services heart centred and full of integrity. Yoga is so much apart of both of our lives that it was built right into our business model. Meag and I have the deepest desire to see people succeed in their passion and pursue their vision. Yoga has guided me into this business mentality and is the constant behind my decisions as an entrepreneur. 

 

Even writing this, I am reminded of the incredible strength I receive through this practice. Find the willingness and desire to show up for fully for yourself. Yoga is always reminding me of who I am in this world and that I have an important and valuable place within it. Keep following your practice, you have no idea where it might take you and who it might connect you with. I have been able to do all this things in such a short time but I truly believe its a combination of dedication, persistence, passion, devotion and a regular yoga asana and meditation practice. Especially when life is proving to be the toughest, allow yoga to be your constant no matter what. It demonstrates to me a divine inner strength but also a larger force that is perhaps guiding us all, I take great comfort in this. 

With Love and Gratitude, 
Helena 





















A Student to Yoga Teacher Journey By Jenn Ayotte

I still remember the day I first walked into In Fine Feather Yoga. I didn’t really have any prior experience with yoga, so I didn’t know what to expect. I had taken a couple of classes at a community center before but that was years ago, and the only thing I could remember was being asked to flop like a fish on the community room floor and feeling rather uncomfortable.

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So here I was walking into another yoga class, years later, and so many things were going through my head.

Am I wearing the right clothes for this? How many people are going to be in there? Are we going to flop like a fish? (In case you were wondering, there was no flopping of any kind, I was relieved.) I don’t remember much about what we did in class that day but I do remember nervously moving through the poses and then feeling wonderful about it while lying in the dark at the end of class. I walked out of the studio that day in the best mood and I knew right then I was already hooked. On eclass was all it took. Just so we’re clear I am not an athletic person. I grew up hating gym class (I was one hundred percent that girl that purposely forgot their gym clothes), I definitely do not enjoy playing sports (I am convinced my face in a ball magnet), and I avoid any situation where I might have to run. So, when I found yoga, I was shocked by how much my body could do. The more I showed up on my mat the stronger I got. Over time, I found myself being able to do poses that at first, I thought I’d never be able to do. For the first time in my life, I was feeling good inside my body and this confidence I found on my mat started to show up in other parts of my life as well. I started to notice that somewhere through my practice I stopped doubting myself and my body’s abilities and that was such a big thing for me. Suddenly all these things I would normally be too afraid to do weren’t so scary anymore.

So, it’s not surprising that only a few months after signing up for my first yoga class, I quickly became a regular at the studio.

Months turned into years and somewhere along the way I notice I had become a part of this little community. In Fine Feather is such a warm and welcoming place, it was one of the things that made it so easy for me to find comfort on my mat. The teachers not only guide you through practice but they bring you in, get to know you, and make you feel like you are practicing with a friend. The place just attracts good people. Whether it’s something as simple as moving your mat to make space for another person, or sharing a laugh with the person next to you during class, there seems to be an unspoken agreement to be kind and respectful to each other. It doesn’t matter how old you are, what size you might be, or how experienced you are, In Fine Feather has a way of making you feel as though you belong there. This sense of community is what made it so easy for me to stay committed to my practice.

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When I first heard that In Fine Feather had a Yoga Teacher Training program, I wasn’t really sure if it was for me.

I wanted to learn everything I could about yoga but the idea of teaching was terrifying to me. Growing up I always feared having to talk in front of other people and in high school I would even skip class just to avoid doing an oral presentation. So, you can see why the idea of becoming a Yoga Teacher seemed impossible to me but I was still finding myself drawn to the idea enrolling. I was looking for a way to deepen my own practice and there was so much about yoga I didn’t know and wanted to learn. After a little bit of encouragement from my family and teachers at the studio, I finally decided to take the leap and enrolled.

The weeks before Teacher Training started, I’m not going to lie, I was terrified!

I kept wondering what I had got myself into, I had no idea what to expect. When the first day came around and I made it through only mildly uncomfortable, I started to think maybe I can actually do this. Throughout the course there so many moments that I was pushed out of my comfort zone but as the course went on those moments got less hard, and the more I got to know the people in training with me the less alone I felt in these moments. We were all interested in the same thing and we all had our own fears we were trying to overcome. Having this connection with the other people in my group was one of the things I loved the most about Teacher Training, we all had each other to lean on for support.

A few months into Training, I was about to run into my biggest challenge.

I had just found out I was pregnant! My husband and I had been trying to get pregnant so this wasn’t a surprise, but it definitely happened a lot faster than I was ready for. At first being pregnant didn’t really change much but as my belly grew things got a lot tougher. I remember demoing at yoga in the park while I was 5 months pregnant on a hot summer day and spending the entire hour with the worst heart burn of my life. I was sweating, I was shaking, and every time I went to fold over my legs, I was sure I was about to lose my breakfast. That was the moment I realized how much more of a challenge it was going to be to get through the rest of training with a growing belly. I was tired, I was sore, I was nauseous, but as hard as it got, this growing life inside of me was my daughter and that was more motivation than it was a challenge. There was no way I was going to tell my daughter I quit when things got hard.

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Finally, the moment I had been dreading had arrived.

I was going to have to stand in front of my peers and guide them through a sequence I came up with myself. Not only had a I never planned my own sequence but now I was going to have to come up with something I could actually demo while 8 months pregnant. Let’s be real, I was so nervous the entire time I was teaching but I was surprised to find that the nerves started to melt away the longer I was up there. Even more surprising was how good I felt when I finished, this was nothing like standing at the front of a class to do an oral presentation, yoga was something I loved, and being able to share that with others was so exciting. I wasn’t expecting it to happen but as nervous as teaching made me, I was still falling in love with it.

Graduation day arrived and I was overwhelmed with the pride, I had made it all the way through to the end.

Not even 3 whole weeks later I gave birth to my baby girl. The first few months after my daughter was born were tough. There was very little sleep and lots of tears (both mine and baby’s). Six months into becoming a new mom, I saw the posting to sub classes at In Fine Feather. The first thing I felt when I saw this was excitement, teaching in the very place where I found yoga and became a teacher was a dream to me but I was hesitant. While everyone else in my Teacher Training had spent the last six months getting out there and teaching, I was at home adjusting to life as a new parent. I got right back to the studio and on my mat the moment I got the okay from my doctor but I still hadn’t taught any classes yet outside of teacher training. So, I started to doubt myself but that doubt was just an excuse. The truth was I was just scared, not only of auditioning and failing but of actually getting hired on and having to get through the nerves of becoming a teacher. It would have been so easy to let that fear get in the way of what I really wanted but teacher training had already showed me that some of the best things come from something that scares you, and now I was a mom, I had to set a good example. So, instead of letting being a new mom be my excuse, I let it be my motivation. I applied for the spot, I audition, and I got it!

So, here I am, a year after graduating from teacher training and I’m not only subbing but I have my very own class that I get to teach every week!

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I love each and every moment that I get to spend teaching and guiding other students through their practice. My dreams of being a self-employed stay at home mom and yoga teacher are becoming more of a reality every day and that was something at one time I believed could never happen. So, whatever it is that scares you, whatever it is that has you doubting yourself, just stop and take the leap. Dreams really do come true.

More About Jenn

Jenn loves teaching classes with a theme or a focused intention and puts emphasis on alignment and moving with breath. She urges students to listen to their body and make their practice their own. Driven by how her practice has changed her life outside of the studio, she encourages students to take all they’ve learned on their mats and apply it to their every day lives. Her passion for teaching is motivated by the desire to help students find positivity during practice and take it with them off their mats.

More About Teacher Training at In Fine Feather Yoga

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A Student Reflection by Carol D'Alves

We are so pleased to share a student reflection from Carol. She has been practicing consistently and a monthly renew member for over 2 years at In Fine Feather Yoga. Our whole community is so grateful for Carol’s energy and kind words. She is a shining light and brings us so much joy, not to mention the incredible growth in all facets that she has experienced on her mat. If any of Carol’s story relates to you, take these golden nuggets of wisdom from her and know that consistency to your mat really is key.

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When I retired I was determined to remain active and to look after my health but I did not enjoy the gym environment and the occasional exercise class was not enough. It took a little courage to enter In Fine Feather Yoga the first time because I had never been in a yoga studio before and I fully expected to feel like the elderly aunt at a bachelorette. I could not have been more wrong! Becoming an auto-renew member of In Fine Feather Yoga was one of the best decisions I have ever made and I have benefited from that decision in many ways.


Past Challenges & Injuries

Because of past injuries and scoliosis of my shoulder which is worsening with age, I began with chair yoga. It wasn't long before the pain in my shoulder subsided and I now have better range of motion, not only in my shoulder but also in my hips. When I added gentle and intro classes to my practice I continued to feel physically stronger. My balance and my posture is improving too. In fact, the nurse at my doctor's office asked me how I was managing not to shrink in height, and my massage therapist has commented on the muscle definition in my arms and shoulders. A past hip injury had me believing that I would never be able to sit cross legged, and sometimes I am still not able, but more and more often with the use of a bolster I can sit comfortably for short periods of time. That is one of the challenges I am continuing to work on. I love the way yoga challenges me, and I am learning to be patient and gentle with the challenges.

Benefits of Yoga

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Yoga is providing me with tools to quiet self doubt, and to deal with social anxiety and chronic depression. I seldom feel the heavy weight on my chest and the tightening restriction that often used to make it impossible for me to breathe deeply when I was feeling stressed and panicked. I now use my breath to manage anxiety, rather than letting anxiety restrict my breathing. Controlling the panic allows me to remain calm and handle difficult situations without over-reacting.

A yoga practice is not only physical - it is also an inner journey, a spiritual journey that nourishes the soul. I am becoming more meditative and better able to live in the moment appreciating people and my surroundings. I am now more able to resist negative energy, and calm my own frustration and anger. I have learned how to use a mala, have made my own mala and it has become an essential practice in my journey to a better spiritual awareness. I feel supported by yoga and that enables me to offer my support to others.

The Community

When I retired I left behind a fantastic community of people that I saw on a day-to-day basis and that was very difficult for me. The IFF community has filled that void. I have met so many amazing people - each of us different but coming together to share our practice in a space that supports us exactly as we are. Helena, the instructors and the energy exchangers have created a space that is welcoming, that radiates positivity, and that encourages us to be our own imperfectly perfect selves, and for that I am so grateful!

Namaste.

-Carol

Committing to an Intentional Practice by Meagan Santa

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My daily practice is something I look forward to. It allows me to feel grounded and clear. Some days it looks like rolling out my mat at home or in the studio. Other days it includes meditation and free-writing. The idea of experiencing as many benefits as possible from my practice led me to note ways I could be more intentional about my practice especially since it’s become such a staple in my life. I believe this feeling is relatable after many conversions with other friends who practice yoga or meditation and even students at In Fine Feather.

I invite you to take a moment and reflect on what you’ve learned from your dedicated time on your mat.

For myself, I’ve noticed how after a yoga flow I seem to have a more authentic stream of consciousness come through in my journal writing and how I can fall into a meditative state with more ease. When I look ahead to the coming month I’ve asked myself what I needed to receive from my practice to show up as my best self. Did I need more gentle flows or would an intermediate/advanced practice serve me better by challenging myself? Was their lifestyle habits I could invite in more regularly? Was I inspired by a mantra or quote that I felt called to unpack and meditate on longer? Have you ever asked yourself these questions?

One of my favourite pieces to reflect on is how am I taking yoga off my mat?

Yoga is more than the asana aka the sun salutations and poses. This idea is inspired by the 8 limbs of yoga, specifically the yamas. How can we selflessly share the practice of yoga with others? You can learn more about this yoga philosophy HERE. Was I volunteering? Could I donate items I no longer was in need of? Was there an opportunity for me to create space for a friend? My practice became more fulfilling when I was able to share it without the expectation of a return. If you already do some of these acts of service, then you are taking yoga off your mat and practicing without realizing it!

Do we collectively celebrate our successes enough?

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Do you give yourself a pat on the back for showing up and rolling out your mat even if it was a bad day? Have you recognized your personal growth and the lessons you’ve learned in the last season? Gosh, this is so important! Give yourself the well-deserved recognition. This practice isn’t easy. Every day your body is a little different. Your headspace fluctuates and we live through different experiences. When we practice in the studio and actively share space, we are coming together to breathe and move no matter how different we are from each other. Are you celebrating our differences as a community? One thing I love about our community is every student and teacher arrives with a different story. I see students of various backgrounds, beliefs, body shapes, physical abilities, etc chatting and smiling. That is special and it is certainly worth celebrating.

How can we guide you further?

Helena McKinney and I collectively designed a super helpful guided journal to use as a resource to answer all of these questions and go even deeper. I invite you to commit to a more intentional practice for yourself! Use the guided journal HERE and either print it out to write or use the digital version and write the answers in your personal journal. I hope this has got you thinking and reflecting on your own experiences on and off your mat.

More About Meagan

Meagan is a graduate of the In Fine Feather Yoga 200 Hour Teacher Training Program, the assistant manager at the studio, a lifestyle coach and yoga instructor. Learn more about Meagan HERE. Come meet Meagan on the mat at In Fine Feather Yoga by checking the class schedule HERE and find her bio HERE.

Committing to an Intentional Practice. A Guided Journal Experience.
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Now is as good a time as any to commit to an intentional practice! We’ve created this guided journal experience for you to check-in and see where your practice has taken you so far, where it might go and what you'd like to receive from your practice going forward. We provide prompts that allow you to lovingly reflect on your practice while setting future intentions. We also give you space to explore what taking yoga off your mat has taught you and how you can do more of that followed by an opportunity to celebrate your milestones! Let's cultivate intention through this self guided meditation, reflection and journalling opportunity with In Fine Feather Yoga!

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My Karma Yoga Experience by Sara Nixon

This summer at In Fine Feather Yoga, all the students enrolled in our 200 Hour Yoga Teacher Training course took the summer months off. Which meant they were out of the classroom and putting their training into purpose and action. They had a number of assignments and self study projects to complete throughout the summer, one of which was 5 hours of volunteering within the community. The intention of this exercise was to bring the moral principals of the Yamas and Niyamas into the volunteer work they did with an organization or charity that was not related to yoga. Specifically, looking to explore and exercise these principle to help guide them through the experience of volunteering. We felt really inclined to share Sara’s Karma Yoga exercise because it is the embodiment of how the Yoga practice should be lived and explored everyday to enrich our personal growth but also our connections to other people. If you aren't very familiar with the Yamas and Niyamas, you will still love this article, but we've also provided you with a link HERE to do some background reading if you feel included to know more about the philosophy.

A big thank you to Sara for allowing us to share her experience with the IFF community!

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My Relationship to Asteya

I currently volunteer at the YWCA Hamilton Senior 55+ Active Living Centre. My volunteer work here is a directly result of my contemplation of the yamas and niaymas during Yoga Teacher Training. I came to this organization through my intent to practice aestya, or non-stealing. I’d like to share my story of how I got to this place: I came to yoga teacher training feeling restless and discontent. I had a hard time coming to terms with why. If I was to look at myself through the eyes of an observer, I would see a privileged life. I am married to the most loving and supportive partner and together we own a house and have a family of adorable cats. I have a career directly in my field of study, and not only is it fulfilling and rewarding, but I am paid benefits and have a pension. I travel and hike and camp and garden and surround myself with family and friends who love me and constantly build me up. I am living the millennial dream.

And yet, for many months leading up to YTT, this relentless voice told me I was not enough and that, in order to be enough, I needed to take more. I spent about a year almost obsessively searching for and applying to what seemed like better, more important and impressive careers. I’d get some interviews but never did I get the job. I also applied to volunteer boards and committees that I thought would look impressive. I wasn’t successful in these either. This was hard on my sense of self-worth, and further perpetuated the illusion that if I took more, I could be more. 


Connecting it back to Asteya

Asteya is not only concerned with stealing things that are tangible, but also stealing emotional, cultural, and social space. As a privileged, white female living the millennial dream, I take up a lot of this kind of space. Yet, through contemplation, I realized that my discontentment came from this compulsion to take up more space, and to ensure my spot at the centre of it. This was unhealthy and led to feelings of inadequacy, jealously, judgement, and competition. Instead of focusing my energies on taking up space for myself, I am now more mindful to consciously and thoughtfully give space to others who need it more than I do. This has become my practice of asteya.

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Reflection

I stopped applying to jobs and impressive committees, and instead applied to volunteer with the YWCA Hamilton Seniors 55+ Active Living Centre. I help run the outreach programming for the Senior Outreach Community Connections program, where older adults living in long-term care facilities all over the city are transported to the YWCA for a morning of singing, dancing, games, and other interactive programming. Older adults living in long term care facilities often feel isolated and forgotten. This program aims to connect older adults with others, to explore new things in a supportive environment, and to have fun.

I will also be delivering my own programming at the centre in Fall 2019, where I will lead conversation-based sessions on different aspects of local Hamilton history focused on memory-sharing and storytelling. In these programs, older adults will be at the centre, where they will have the opportunity to share, reminisce, and connect to one another. My role will be to facilitate and to listen – to create space for others. I do this work to engage members of the community who do not hold adequate social, cultural, and emotional space. I do this work to create a supportive space where older adults feel heard, appreciated, and valued. This is my practice of asteya.

More About IFF’s Yoga Teacher Training in Hamilton

Click here to learn more or contact Helena McKinney here.

My Karma Yoga Experience by Kelsi Salisbury

This summer at In Fine Feather Yoga, all the students enrolled in our 200 Hour Yoga Teacher Training course took the summer months off. Which meant they were out of the classroom and putting their training into purpose and action. They had a number of assignments and self study projects to complete throughout the summer, one of which was 5 hours of volunteering within the community. The intention of this exercise was to bring the moral principals of the Yamas and Niyamas into the volunteer work they did with an organization or charity that was not related to yoga. Specifically, looking to explore and exercise these principle to help guide them through the experience of volunteering. We felt really inclined to share Kelsi’s Karma Yoga exercise because it is the embodiment of how the Yoga practice should be lived and explored everyday to enrich our personal growth but also our connections to other people. If you aren't very familiar with the Yamas and Niyamas, you will still love this article, but we've also provided you with a link HERE to do some background reading if you feel included to know more about the philosophy.

Thank you Kelsi for allowing us to share your experience with the IFF community!

I chose to take this opportunity to volunteer with an organization that has been a big part of my life for the last 3 years. 

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The Hamilton Victory Gardens is a not-for-profit organization that turns otherwise vacant spaces into flourishing gardens, growing organic vegetables to be donated to local food banks and hot meal programs.  When I first found this organization a few years back, I unearthed my love for gardening and interest in food security. While I have been privileged enough throughout my life to not have to worry about where my next meal is coming from, this is not the case for many Hamiltonians.  In further, the nature of food banks results in many donations consisting of canned or boxed food items with little room for fresh and local produce. The Hamilton Victory Gardens works to fill this gap, to increase access to healthy fresh fruits and vegetables for those in need. Organizations like this cannot independently disband food insecurity while cost-of-living and the housing crisis are prevalent issues at the forefront, however they play a vital role in supplementing the immediate need for improved access to nutritious options in our community.

My Past Volunteer Experience

For the last two years, until December of 2018, I became very involved in the Hamilton Victory Gardens.  I was so passionate about the efforts of HVG that I took every opportunity to try to help - I organized events and fundraisers, liaised with new volunteers, managed the web platform, curated social media and newsletter content, and completed large grant applications.  While I held this volunteer role very close to my heart, there came a time when my plate began to overflow from volunteer responsibilities, my full-time job, and family obligations. As much as I loved contributing to the organization, I found it was my health and personal well-being that was being compromised.  At that time I became detached from the reason why I started volunteering and the pressures of all my responsibilities, and felt it was best to step down from my active role within the organization.

Connecting the Yamas & Niyamas

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I spent my 5 hours volunteering at the Cancord Site behind the food basics on Barton & Mary.  Reflecting on my mornings gardening I felt a number of the Yamas and Niyamas were applicable. For me, Svadhyaya was the most prevalent for a number of reasons.  I was able to once again unearth my passion for gardening - which is something I truly miss now living in an apartment with only a few window herbs at my disposal.  I had forgotten how meditative a morning with the plants can be, how much I enjoy being outside, giving back, and learning about horticulture. I also found this a peaceful recluse to quiet my thoughts as I worked through the mundane tasks of pulling weeds, turning soil, and up-rooting plants that had gone to seed.  I applied the Niyama of Tapas as I pulled the various types of weeds.  I allowed myself to really be able to feel the  pricks of Dandelion poking through my gloves, the sensation of extracting a deep root, the hot sun beaming on my skin, being fully aware of each individual task I was completing.  Ishwaraprandihana was another relevant principle as I honoured forces larger than me that play into the success of community gardens.  As much as humans like to say “look what we did!”, there is so much more playing into the equation here. In my own belief, Mama Nature is the ultimate dictator of the success of each plant; the amount of sunlight, the quantity and frequency of rain, the nutrients in the soil, the insects or animals are present are out of our hands.  We, as gardeners, can help plants by creating a supportive environment, but the greatest part of the work is done between the plant and its immediate environment. Therefore, rather than focusing on the pride in what we have grown, the success of the harvest we reaped, we really should be taking more time to be grateful to the sun, rain, earth, and surrounding life that support the growth of our food.  The more time we spend in our gardens, we reinforce a better our connection to our food, and better our connection to the Earth.

Reflection

I am grateful for the Karma experience to allow me to re-explore this closed chapter, and re-visit the reasons why I found myself so heavily invested in the gardens in the first place.  This opportunity provided some closure for my decision to step-down, where I had been harbouring feelings of regret and guilt. Becoming more aware of the Yama Ahimsa - I feel more reassured that it was the best decision for myself at the time to make the conscious decision to be ‘non-harming’ to my own well-being.  

I am looking forward to continue visiting community gardens across our amazing city!

More About IFF’s Yoga Teacher Training

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Yoga as an Effective Cross Training Tool by Meagan Santa

I’m not the only one who has been spending more time outside than on my mat. Summer always encourages me to go on more hikes and walks on the beach. Many of my yoga friends and students have been sharing how sore they are from cycling or running the stairs. It’s great that we are physically active outside but it also means our bodies are using muscles that may not be put to work this hard year round. The solution: yoga.

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My fitness routine includes primarily yoga and home workouts that range from strength training to cardio. I use yoga as a means to recover my body and keep me feeling grounded. Even athletes like Lebron James have shared how including yoga into their training regimen has enhanced their performance - physically and mentally. So let’s consider how cross-training with yoga 1-2x a week minimum will benefit you!

Mental Focus


Breath is a huge focus in vinyasa yoga where we move the body with the breath. This type of concentration keeps us present in the moment which allows us to practice mindfulness and increase our mental focus. If you’ve ever gone on a run or cycled a long distance, you know how it feels when the negative thoughts begin to flood in. Practicing yoga can help you overcome negative thoughts which is a huge benefit at the end of a marathon or half way through your sprint up the stairs!

Recovery

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Muscle fatigue is not uncommon when you are more physically active or using muscles you wouldn’t normally. Yoga is an incredibly healthy avenue for recovering the body. In higher impact forms of exercise, your body absorbs shock and repeatedly contracts muscles in use which causes a shortening in the muscle group. If not recovered properly, this can lead to injury. When following a well-rounded yoga class, the muscles will have been lengthened out and lactic acid removed. Many students leave class feeling like they have more space in their body because the shock wave absorbed has been able to dissipate.

If you include any inverted poses in your practice like legs up the wall or supported bridge, you are allowing the body to rest the valves within the circulatory system and encourage a fresh return of blood to the heart.

It’s important to keep in mind that yoga is about tuning into your self to find out what your own body needs on that specific day. There will be times where you can push yourself and other times where gentle movement would be more beneficial. This distinction is vital to know on a recovery day!

Additional Benefits

Pairing any other type of movement with yoga allows you to improve your strength, endurance and flexibility in both. Flowing from pose to pose with your breath as a guide trains your cardiovascular system for endurance and teaches you how to best communicate with your body. Yoga is also known to reduce inflammation at the joints and muscles, increase heart health, strengthen the nervous system, increase muscular strength, fight memory degeneration and oxygenate the blood.

I hope this information will encourage you to roll out your mat at least 1-2 times a week for all the health benefits above and to increase your performance in other sports and activities. If you can’t make it in studio as often as you’d like, check out In Fine Feather’s online classes to do from home HERE.

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Fit Flow Class

Additionally if you aren’t someone who is regularly active off your mat or you just need a good sweat, fit flow is a great class to add to your schedule. IFF offers it twice a week - Tuesday evenings at 7:00-8:00pm with Andrea King (community class) and Saturday mornings at 8:30-9:30am with me.  Save your spot online HERE or arrive to class 10-15 minutes to get comfortable.

Fit flow will make you sweat and challenge the way you look at modern vinyasa yoga. This class will move through vinyasa flows with focus on the muscle groups that help strengthen your practice in a more obvious way. Feel the entire core engage, pulse through squats and lunges, and elevate the heart rate through higher intensity sequences. Don’t let the word FIT scare you, trust that your Fit flow is here to help strengthen your body and your mind and their connection in an unconventional way. Flow and sweat to fun playlists and leave feeling like you’ve left everything on the mat.

More About Meagan

Meagan is a graduate of the In Fine Feather Yoga 200 Hour Teacher Training Program, the assistant manager at the studio, a lifestyle coach and yoga instructor. Learn more about Meagan HERE. Come meet Meagan on the mat at In Fine Feather Yoga by checking the class schedule HERE and find her bio HERE.